Living With Christ

I didn't come to God because I am perfect and Holy, I came to god because I was broken, I was depressed, I was filled with anger and hatred.

When started off from college, I carried that attitude that "fate lies in my own hands". I will carry my self through to success. I lusted for material things, public attention and always wanted to be on top.

As the years go by, I have tried many things, many businesses and many jobs in crave for money and success. I have made and broken many hearts in the persuit of attention and status. But one thing I did was I did them with all my heart and effort. Many times I have tried and many times I have hit the wall, face first.

It hurts.

Over the years, I have learnt many things but nothing I have learnt before came so interestingly and so straight forward to me as it was said in the bible. My mother, a very important person in my life, is a stonge buddhist, but little did i know her words of motherly wisdoms can actually be found in the bible too!..

When God call me back to Him, He took my job, my relationship and ultimately my friends. I was down on my knees because I know how I fooled around and lost a job, but when whatever you worked hard for just didn't go well, it makes you totally lose faith in yourself. So I cried out, "Jesus, I need you"...

Since then, God showed me my ways, how i was treating my family, how i was hurting people, how i was foolish and cheated, for God said, "I am the way"...

One of the most important thing was, God showed me the sacrifices of a mother, how mothers take care of their young children, how a mother's heart cries everytime her child is in pain, how helpless a mother feels when she cannot comfort the child's suffering. How a mother has so much hope and aspirations on their children. I have learnt to understand how little love I show to my mother all these while, how many things that got taken for granted.

God also showed me how to trust Him. I have a car, i work in an office. But I experienced poverty. Many people think that poverty is about people who live in villages without food and clothes. I came to a point where i was juggling to spend my last few dollars either on petrol OR food. But God is good, when i am in need, He never left me to go without. But what I learnt was to be faithful to what I have been given. Never take money I earn for granted. For one day, one cent could make a difference between whether you eat or starve.

I have learnt thatI can cope with things better because God is with me. I have learnt to appreciate my family, I have learnt to appreciate my job, I have learnt to appreciate my finances.

I now have the job that I lost in another company, and I am learning more than I every could in the previous one, On top of that, I was exposed to teaching and I have good part time income, He made my appreciate my family so much more, so I tolerate many more things and be a better person, and He has granted me a relationship that is sweetest and purest than I have ever experienced.

When God asks you to give Him something, He gives back, pressed down, shaken together and running over. One can only imagine what happens if I give Him me life.

He heals, He provides, and He shows us the way!

A journey began~~

It was a long and winding road,

There were many trials and errors,

But we made it so far,

This is not a fairy tale,

The road ahead will still be long and winding,

Many more trails and errors to come,

But we will go through them together.

Special appreciation to the people who encouraged us so far

Pomises

I've been through some though times, I have been eating very well, and there are times where i have been hungry. But one thing that i am really thankful i never did is that i never complained to God. I am still thankful for every little bit of food i managed to get. In fact i am more thankful that i ever was when am when i am in need than when i had my better times. But i went through all that for a reason. Cos, I always belive that i am being trained for a greater reason. I have always been praying for God to let me hear Him. Today he answered to me,

I have learnt that whatever i went through, He has used that to teach me something. I learnt from my mistakes, i learnt from the mistakes He allowed me to fall into some pits so that i learn.
And I thank God for taking me through those though times.

Philippians 4:10-13 (New International Version)
10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

For He has answered:

Jeremiah 29:11 (New King James Version)
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.